New hair, new outlook.

I have been wanting to cut my hair for a long time, but i have been waiting until i finished high-school.
Random i know, but nevertheless i finally decided to do it.
I figure new life, new ideas, new hair :)


I really like it and i feel much more positive, in regards to starting a new chapter of my life.
Its a minute start, but a start at the very least :)

Rainy day

And all i want to do is go outside

Finally finished!

Well well, 13 years of schooling and Im finally finished!
I have been awaiting this day for my entire life, and now its here I am filled with sadness.
This past week has been one of the most amazing of my life, so happy and full of great memories that i will cherish forever. Some funnier than others eg our 'muck-up' day where the principal kicked us out of school!
My friends are amazing (cliche' i know) but its true, without them school would not have been nearly as enjoyable. They really do make my days worthwhile. I will miss them all so much and i fear that many of us will drift and loose contact.
If so here is the recognition that they all deserve for putting up with me over the last 6 years :)





Thank you for making all the memories ones that will last forever :)

Blah.

I havent written on here for ages.
Im in a contemplative kind of mood, I want to do something productive.
I have a 5 day weekend ahead of me, i really dont want to waste it!
Knowing me i most likely will.
I need to think of more fun things to do.

Something small.

A week ago it was my birthday. A day that I'm sure everyone looks forward to. Usually for the presents and for being the center of attention, understandably so, for all to desire. I had a really good day, and received all the presents i wanted and was fussed over copiously. Throughout the day however, between all the money spent and dining out for lunch, i took a moment to take into consideration the smaller aspects of my day. I noticed all the little things, that had been done for me and got blown away how much i appreciated all of this. At the end of the day, i went to bed smiling. Not because of the money, or the clothes or any of the materialistic items i had received, but for the company that surrounded me on my birthday, the cards and letters; that had been worded from the heart expressing true happiness for me and for the amount of love shown towards me especially throughout today. I can be a very and rude selfish person, but after experiencing this feeling i now have an eye for the smaller things in life. And in fact, they turn out to be the most important, not how much money was spent, but the amount of love and affection that is portrayed through small acts of kindness and gestures from the heart. I notice things more now, for the better. To you, i say thank you.

Creativity is a flaw on my part.

Im in a peculiar mood today. I stayed home from school in the hope of getting lots of things done at home. What i really want to do is to re-decorate my bedroom, yet i lack creativity and its too messy to do anything !
Realisation; I am really good at procrastinating !
When i am supposed to do something, i dont. I put it off and create other things to do to avoid it. Usually this wastes my day, but today it has lead me to a better frame of mind.
I put things off because i know i can do them later, today i realised that in a way i am putting my life off. I keep waiting for exciting things to happen and i just wander aimlessly through life not realising that amazing things are happening to me every second, Im just too self absorbed to acknowledge them.
"Live life to the fullest" I know everyone has heard that saying, but how many people can say they live by it daily. I'd say very few.
Im going to start !
Im not going to take drastic measure and go sky diving tomorrow, to me that isnt living life to the fullest. My definition would be to appreciate everyone and everything in life, to not focus of the negatives but rather to be thankful for everything that has happened to you whether it be good or bad, let things happen- dont question everything. In time light will be shed on every aspect of your life.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together"- Marylin Monroe.

For me, this will be hard and will take some time. Im not going to wake up tomorrow and feel joyous about everything, yet in time i will learn to appreciate everything that life throws my way. Luckily i have amazing people that will stand by me no matter how difficult or frustrating i get and although i dont tell them enough i DO appreciate them. To anyone who has impacted on my life and made me a better person; thankyou. To everyone whom i consider one i could not live without; i love you.
So here goes; to a new me !
Cheers