Creativity is a flaw on my part.

Im in a peculiar mood today. I stayed home from school in the hope of getting lots of things done at home. What i really want to do is to re-decorate my bedroom, yet i lack creativity and its too messy to do anything !
Realisation; I am really good at procrastinating !
When i am supposed to do something, i dont. I put it off and create other things to do to avoid it. Usually this wastes my day, but today it has lead me to a better frame of mind.
I put things off because i know i can do them later, today i realised that in a way i am putting my life off. I keep waiting for exciting things to happen and i just wander aimlessly through life not realising that amazing things are happening to me every second, Im just too self absorbed to acknowledge them.
"Live life to the fullest" I know everyone has heard that saying, but how many people can say they live by it daily. I'd say very few.
Im going to start !
Im not going to take drastic measure and go sky diving tomorrow, to me that isnt living life to the fullest. My definition would be to appreciate everyone and everything in life, to not focus of the negatives but rather to be thankful for everything that has happened to you whether it be good or bad, let things happen- dont question everything. In time light will be shed on every aspect of your life.
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they go right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart, so that better things can fall together"- Marylin Monroe.

For me, this will be hard and will take some time. Im not going to wake up tomorrow and feel joyous about everything, yet in time i will learn to appreciate everything that life throws my way. Luckily i have amazing people that will stand by me no matter how difficult or frustrating i get and although i dont tell them enough i DO appreciate them. To anyone who has impacted on my life and made me a better person; thankyou. To everyone whom i consider one i could not live without; i love you.
So here goes; to a new me !
Cheers